Lost Journals

Tonight Jeff made a HUGE deal about the fact that I wear my wedding ring on my right hand. He made me take my rings off and then he stood up and put my wedding ring on my left hand. The last person to put a ring on my finger was Sean.

Furthermore, he went on and on about how awesome Sean is because he married me and how I'm still married because I never divorced.

I don't know how to handle all of these conflicting emotions. Yes, I'm still attracted to Jeff but I don't want anything more than a friendship. Putting a ring on my finger was more than I could bare especially considering what Will is dealing with.

I have to remember that I am only human and I can only bare so much of other people's pain. I cannot heal him. Jeff cannot heal me.Damn it, I need to go to bed.

Goodnight sweet world, goodnight fair Liam.